As a collective, each one of us has gone through personal traumas moulding us to the best that we can be.  My traumas took me through a journey of searching and seeking to understand myself and how my traumas affected me to be able to help others who have gone through the same.  I was an unwanted child due to family dynamics.  I was sexually abused when I was 8 and recently found out as an infant too.  I was sent to a strict Catholic nun’s boarding school abroad at the age of 7 when my half sister was born. They used to beat us up.  In those days the telephone lines were terrible and so it was a treat to be able to speak to parents once a month.  My sister was the golden girl and I was the black sheep and scapegoat for the family’s dysfunction.  I was called ‘good for nothing’ a programming that ran deep in me.  There was hardly any demonstrative love, acknowledgement, emotional and psychological support as a child.  There were many hidden skeletons in my family’s closet which I finally unveiled for healing to take place.  I subconsciously repeated these same patterns in the people I chose as partners.  I had addictive tendencies.  I became bulimic at the age of 14 which continued till the age of 45.  I finally realized my dysfunction, connected the dots, and sought help.  As I started healing, I decided to learn therapies to help myself and others.  Learning to love myself and letting go of victimhood and the past has been my greatest challenge. I created boundaries and cut myself off from toxic people. I created a vision of what I wanted and focused on that.  I have a beautiful son and I am grateful for all the simple blessings in my life.  I have come to the conclusion that healing is a process, it takes time and it takes courage to delve back into the past and process all the hurt and suffering embedded in the subconscious mind.  I would not be the person I am now had I not gone through those challenges!

Houry N.