As a collective, each one of us has gone through personal traumas moulding us to the best that we can be.  My traumas took me through a journey of searching and seeking to understand myself and how these traumas affected me to be able to help others who have gone through the same.  I was an unwanted child due to family dynamics.  I was sexually abused.  I was sent to a Catholic nun’s boarding school abroad at the age of 7 when my half sister was born.  She was the golden girl and I was the black sheep and scapegoat for the family’s dysfunction.  I was called ‘good for nothing’ and I was physically mentally and emotionally abused.  There was no love, no touch, no acknowledgement, no emotional and psychological support in my life.   I subconsciously repeated these same patterns in the people I chose as partners.  I had addictive tendencies.   I became bulimic at the age of 14 which continued till the age of 45.  I finally realized my dysfunction, connected the dots, and sought help. I decided to learn therapies to help myself and others.  Learning to love myself and letting go of victimhood and the past has been my greatest challenge. I cut myself off from toxic family members. I cut myself off from people who do not accept me as I am. I have a beautiful son and I am grateful for all the simple blessings in my life.  I have come to the conclusion that healing is a process, it takes time and it takes courage to delve back into the past and process all the hurt and suffering.  I would not be the person I am now had I not gone through those challenges!

Houry N.